Marcus Flint's Journal [entries|friends|calendar] Marcus Flint keep holding on when my brain's tickin' like a bomb, guess the black thoughts have come again to get me; sweet bitter words, unlike nothing i have heard, sing along mocking bird, you don't affect me; that's right; deliverance of my heart, be straight, be deliberate. wait, i'm coming undone, unlaced, i'm coming undone, too late, i'm coming undone; what looks so strong, so delicate, wait, i'm starting to suffocate, and soon i anticipate, i'm coming undone; what looks so strong, so delicate. choke, choke again, i thought my demons were my friends, getting me in the end, they're out to get me; since i was young i've tasted sorrow on my tongue; that's right, trigger between my eyes please strike, make it quick now; wait, i'm coming undone recent , profile , allpics , friends , archive. [ userinfo | insanejournal userinfo ] [ calendar | insanejournal calendar ]

21 [Tue 3 Mar @ 5:10pm] [Hexed Private; Miles, Blaise, Adrian, Pansy, Mili] SHE FUCKING INFURIATES ME. Forget talking to her, Adrian, there's no reasoning with her. It's either come back and throw it all fucking away and get everyone killed or stay here and be my "disgusting" self. I'm fucking bloody tired of it! You try to do something a certain way so that a girl doesn't fucking get hurt and this is how she sees it! If I did what I WANTED to do then I would be there right bloody now and owling pictures of myself to Lucius Fucking Malfoy with my middle finger directed RIGHT. AT. HIM. But oh fuck no! I'm just being a disgusting man that's all about myself! I'm not trying to protect my family, oh fuck no! She doesn't understand the HELL that would be brought down upon not only myself, but her, the fucking baby, and Elizabeth! She knows NOTHING about what's stopping me from being there! SO GO KICK THE SHIT OUT OF SOMETHING, ANGELINA. GO. KICK. THE. SHIT. OUT. OF. SOMETHING. Bloody fuck. I want to kill someone. Particularly Lucius. [/End Private] SO GO DO IT. read all (22) leave a comment

20 [Fri 23 Jan @ 10:59am] [Private; Miles can read] I suppose you wouldn't know by just looking at her unless you knew and were looking for minor details. But it's there. She's got that glow. read all (6) leave a comment

profile; [Sun 23 Nov @ 9:25pm] ( since i was young, i've tasted sorrow on my tongue ) leave a comment

19 [Tue 3 Jun @ 1:33pm] [Hexed; Friends only] You know that things are getting boring when you find yourself staring out windows for hours at a time. It'll be hard for everyone to take in what's coming, but it's sort of inevitable, I think. There's no reason why He would suddenly back down or disappear, yet people just go on living their lives - as if by taking advantage of every second they have by 'having fun' will just make life better and all of the terror will just go away. Life is so pointless. You're either stuck fucking serving someone or you're watching your world get shattered. Fight back; but then what? Watch it all happen again? How exciting. read all (30) leave a comment

18 [Thu 1 May @ 5:02pm] [Hexed Private to Self; Miles can read] I've been invited by Astoria to have lunch sometime with her and Daphne. I think that if I wasn't in this state of absolute boredom and misery then I would have said no. Nothing against either of them, other than the fact that Daphne is a bitch - a Pureblood trait that I suppose I forgot to inherit - but I probably just wouldn't have cared to. I'm in no state to mingle and socialize now; but if I stay in this fucking castle for too many more days in a row I'll bloody go mental. Things are growing worse in England, it's obvious. People are trying to bond together and make the best of what has happened to their pitiful government, but let's face the facts. They were just blown out of the water and are just too afraid to admit it. Fight, sure, whatever, there will always be someone that will stand up for freedom, but this time is going to be different. I only wish that I could protect Angelina and Eliza... I don't know what I'll do when it comes back down to going there myself to act as a faithful servant. I won't hurt them, and as far as I'm concerned, no one else will. Unless they want to be fucked up. [/End Hex] leave a comment

17 [Mon 24 Mar @ 9:22pm] [Private] She's going to need that attitude; I just wish I could say that I could so easily say myself that I'm not afraid of a bald old man. I don't think that I'm necessarily afraid anymore; just letting myself be used. That's what I got into this business for, wasn't it? [/Private] [Eliza] Is she Do you kn She is, isn't sh What's going on with Angelina? She's more temperamental than usual. Which is saying alot. What do you know? [/Eliza] [Miles] Blaise doesn't know how to take me not getting pissed with him. I need someone that understands what's going on. Care to come over to this silent hell hole and share drinks? [/Miles] read all (8) leave a comment

16 [Wed 12 Mar @ 6:11pm] [Hexed; Miles and Blaise can read] This wasn't exactly the way I thought things were going to go. I suppose that some part of my should be grateful that I'm not six feet under - but why? I was so ready to die. I've already fucked it all up. I can't run from all of this shit. I can't just ditch the life of a Death Eater and go fight for someone else; I've already shown that I'm loyal to The Dark Lord. There's no where for me to go but to keep sitting her listening to these old fucktards and do whatever the hell they want. I'd rather be dead then not even have the option to run. [/End Hex] [Hexed Private] I have nothing to live for anymore. I've screwed things up so badly that to be honest there's no one left that could possibly want me alive. There's no begging for forgiveness this time. I can't even cry over all of this shit; there's no heart left in me for emotion. Just empty space. [/End Private] [Hexed; Chase] Watch out for Angelina. I swear to God that if she's hurt I'll kill the person that did it along with whoever it was that let her get in harms way in the first place. [/End Hex] read all (16) leave a comment

15 [Tue 30 Oct @ 7:42pm] Miles. You're homeless for a night. Have fun. leave a comment

14 [Tue 16 Oct @ 2:49pm] Well then. Certainly wasn't expecting that out of the evening. Would have been laughing my ass off if she said no, though. Repeat of Gwenog without the broomstick beating the head part. But that doesn't really matter. Congratulations. [Hexed to DE] Miles and I went to the said location in Ireland, Rodolphus. Nothing was found. He'd left the area days earlier. Anyone that saw him said he was acting terribly suspicious. What a surprise? In other news. The Ministry seems to be catching onto the Brocklehurst murder. They've apparently gotten a lead from someone, or so the story has been told down the line. I've cleaned up any trails leading to me. Someone's snitched. [/End Hex] leave a comment

13 [Wed 3 Oct @ 5:25pm] What's all this blabber about Puddlemere? Sure they've been injured, but in case you lot haven't noticed... Healers tend to get people in and out within a matter of days. From what I hear Bell should be out any minute, and Wood won't take much longer. In other words... Montrose is going to kick your asses. Especially yours, Vaisey. leave a comment

12 [Tue 28 Aug @ 6:15pm] Fucking shit. Fucking headache won't go the fuck away. No matter what I do to relieve it. I was about to stab something at practice today. Too much fucking noise going on everywhere, and then you add on the physical intensity of Quidditch. Shit. I'm going to fuck up the game on the 22nd if I'm still fucked up myself. I need to hit something. leave a comment

11 [Wed 11 Jul @ 1:32pm] [Hexed Private to DE-likes] Ever get one of those hell-like feelings where you just know that impending doom is coming? Maybe I'm just negative. Well, hell, I am negative. But I feel like shit. Which usually means more shit is coming. [/End Hex] At least Montrose is kicking ass. leave a comment

10 [Mon 25 Jun @ 2:30pm] Time to fix my fuck up. Well, fix it more. For all of you 'I'll kill you if you don't treat Angie right-ers', let it be known that I am taking her on a date tonight and it was my idea. Thank you, bitches. leave a comment

9 [Mon 11 Jun @ 1:18pm] Looks like hell opened up again. Sounds like an exciting time. [Hexed Private to Death Eaters] Welcome back, to those of you who were trapped in Hell. [/End Hexed Private to Death Eaters] [Hexed Private to Miles] Who the hell is that Leanne twit? She walks around like she owns the place just because Lucius prefers her over the rest of us fugly bastards. [/End Hexed Private to Miles] leave a comment

8 [Wed 30 May @ 1:39pm] I decided to do something dramatic for Valentine's Day this year. I have officially, and royally, pissed off Angelina Johnson. Well, actually I haven't heard anything from her. YET. But damn, it feels good. Just knowing that I got away with that for a whole twenty-four hours. Feels good. I'm just waiting for her arrival. Any minute now.. I can hear her stomping up the front steps. Wait for it... waaaaaaaaaaaait for it. Presto. An extremely pissed off Angelina Johnson. That was easier than I thought it would be. leave a comment

7 [Fri 11 May @ 4:29pm] All of this complaining about practice is pissing me off. If you don’t want to practice, don’t fucking come and you can get off of my team. I can find other players. Angie hasn’t complained about it once. Kudos to her; the rest of you can fuck off. What did you expect? A nice walk through the park? Welcome to the professional world where we train every day so that we can kick ass. If you don’t want to win, go join the Falcons. leave a comment

January 16 [Mon 29 Jan @ 8:07pm] [Extremely Hexed Against Order Members, Light Supporters, Eliza, Neutral] Fuck It All To Hell And Back. The only thing I held on for.. the only thing that ever made me keep my sanity. And now she's gone. I fought so fucking hard for her when we were young.. I fought so hard against Charles because of what he was, and because of what he did, and how he treated us. And look at me, I've become nothing more than exactly what he is.. A fucking bastard that murders people for a good bit of his living. What pisses me off the most, is that I couldn't even bring myself to tell her before now. I couldn't even tell her that I'm exactly the same as that fucking bastard! I'm just as bad! I stood up for her, I stood up for myself.. I stood up against a mirror image of what I am today. I'm sick of this shit. I'm sick of have to lie to people that I love. I'm sick to HELL of watching people I care for get hurt! This is bullshit. And watch, Angie will be the next. And who after that? Who else am I going to have to hurt? Who else am I going to have to kill because my step-brother doesn't agree with this shit!? Fuck you, Charles. Fuck you for being the shitty father that helped create a son like me. Fuck you for hurting her in the first place. Fuck you for the decisions you made. Fuck you for helping me become the bastard that I am today. Fuck every one of you. Don't try to come and see me. Just don't. I'm sick of human compassion. Obviously it doesn't really exist. I had the hell beaten out of me for a fucking mission that accomplished nothing. It accomplished nothing but getting the sodding hell beat out of me. So the next time you send me to do your dirty work, make sure that the SON OF A BITCH, ISN'T A FUCKING VAMPIRE! A Vampire that is going to leave me bleeding to death in my own fucking flat! We're a bunch of bleeding idiots. Fuck it all. [/Hexed] Practice is canceled for the week. leave a comment

5 [Fri 12 Jan @ 5:06pm] [Extremely Hexed Private to Miles and Damien] I can't.. I don't I want Damn it all to fucking hell and back! I can't do this! I can't keep lying to either of them about all of this! Eliza thinks I'm some sort of.. some sort of fucking saviour! And here I am.. fucking maiming Cliff's girlfriend! And Angie.. Merlin's fucking tit! You two know that I don't know how to handle this! I've never.. I've never.. I don't love people like that! Besides Eliza.. but it's different! And I don't.. I can't.. I've been lying this whole time. This relationship is nothing.. if she found out.. she would never speak to me again.. she would probably try to kill me.. She was the reason I was in Azkaban in the first place... she.. I can't.. This won't work. I can't even look Eliza in the eye right now.. I can't even.. I'm not known for having a heart for anyone but Eliza. If Lucius knows about Angelina.. And Cliff.. he.. What the fuck is wrong with me? I shouldn't have ever started this relationship in the first place. I shouldn't have ever looked for Eliza.. I should have just.. FUCKING BLOODY HELL. [/Hex] [Hexed Private to Eliza and Angelina] I'm sorry. [/Hex] leave a comment

4 [Tue 12 Dec @ 12:51pm] Next Sunday is our match against Puddlemere. First time since Finals last year that we've played them, and while I'm really not too fucking concerned about it.. I'm doubling the training hours simply because I want to crush them and knock them back a few places in the League. If we completely obliterate them they won't be competition anymore. Not that they were before. That glory that Wood's been claiming that they'll soon receive isn't going to be made a reality by my team. Apologies to Eliza.. but I can't help it. A rivalry's a rivalry. Miles, I expect you to be there to watch your best mate contribute to the destruction of your girlfriend's team. I'll send your ticket. leave a comment

3 [Tue 31 Oct @ 1:08pm] [Private to Angie] Was going to ask you at practice, but I completely forgot about it.. And I'm not one to enjoy the idea of dressing up and making a fool of myself but it looks good for publicity to show up to these ridiculous events.. So if no one else has asked you yet, would you mind if I escorted you to that ruddy Ball? [/Private to Angie] Can't believe I am going to that Ball.. going to feel like an idiot. leave a comment

2 [Sat 14 Oct @ 7:59am] [Hexed Against Angie and Death Eaters/Purebloods] What the fuck is wrong with me? Sometimes I wonder if I even think before I act.. Angelina? Honestly, Flint? What the hell were you thinking!? You are going to get your ass killed for this one. Good job, bloke. [/Hexed Against Angie and Death Eaters/Purebloods] Practice went well today. We worked our asses off. Are you happy Morag? I was a real bastard and we worked our asses off. I never dropped the Quaffle. No one dropped the Quaffle. We were covered in sweat by the end of it. leave a comment

1 [Wed 6 Sep @ 6:22pm] Ha. Just read this article some git wrote about Montrose that compared this game to our first game of the season last season. Why do they waste their time? That was a year ago, of course we've improved. It's to be expected of us isn't it? I mean.. what the sodding hell is that all about? We're better, we've topped the league. [Private to Purebloods, excluding his father, step-mother, and Eliza] Party on Saturday seems interesting, although I'm not too thrilled about the fact that Charles will be there along with his little arm decoration. I haven't seen them in over ten years, and to be completely honest I'm not interested in speaking with them if they do show up. What's all this jumble about escorting someone? Are we supposed to escort someone? There aren't too many options if we wish to keep the Pureblood state of the event, which I'm sure will be kept. Also, my sister will be coming. So it would be appreciated if you all didn't scare the hell out of her or intimidate her. I'm sure a few of you remember a very small Eliza Flint toddling around? Yeah, if you touch her I'll kill you. [/Private to Purebloods, excluding his father, step-mother, and Eliza] leave a comment

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